Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Wednesday July 14, 2010

How many times have I heard people tell me, "if only you lost a few pounds you would be gorgeous". My boyfriend even now of 4 months tells me "you would be gorgeous if you just lost 30 pounds". It is amazing what fit people, or even people that are fat (like me) would tell me. The funny thing about it is that they are thinking to themselves "I am helping this person out", when in reality it's quite the opposite.

I am starting this blog in order to let you follow my weight loss, I am finally giving in to the people and the world that think this place on earth would be better without the fat people. I know, it's terrible! Shouldn't I do this for myself, yes I should. But I am doing it for everyone except myself. It is the way it as to be...

I started with my weight loss plan about a month ago, so I'll say June 14, 2010 was my official start. Since then I have lost 10 pounds!!!! How did I do it?? Simple. I worked out and watched what I ate.

during the first couple weeks I would count every single thing that went it my mouth. Whilst doing this I wouldn't eat or drink things I loved, like soda, ice cream, fast food, tacos, get the picture? Basically I was avoiding everything that made me fat in the first place. I realized a couple weeks ago however it is about portion control, I can have a soda once or twice a week, I can eat ice cream in moderation, and I went out for tacos with my boyfriend yesterday.

GUESS WHAT??? I still lost weight, 5 pounds in 2 weeks!

My excercise is easy. Running! That's right a fat girl runs, crazy right? You see I have been plagued my whole life, believing that because I am fat, I can't do certain things. I was fat when I was younger, got into sports, and lost weight. I actually went down to about 140, and to me now that is skinny. But I remember back to 7th grade when I weighed 140, I still thought I was fat. I thought I was a cow. NOW I would give anything to be that. Being well over the 200's I would give anything to be that weight again. And this is my journey.

My boyfriend told me a while back "This is not who you are, being fat is not who a person is or can be, it's their state at the time, but who you are is inside" I believe him and I am trying to lose this weight for him. And for my nephew, sister, mother, family.

I want to change the way people look at me. When I walk down the street I can imagine people saying "WOAH! Look at that fat chick", but I want people, especially men, to say "Look at that 10".

SO for now I am running and watching what I eat (portion control). I TRY to run every other day, but that doesn't always happen. I went to the gym yesterday for a hard workout, at least I think so. 1 mile on elliptical, .5 mile running/walking intervals on level 5 on the treadmill, and lifting weights for about 20 minutes.

Today is just another day of my journey.